TRY

Unhappy it may seems, I am sittin' on my seat, listening to Nelly Furtado - Try. I felt kinda depress lately, mainly due to my relationship unsolved problems. All I can do it try, the more you ask from me, the freedom you want, the care and concern with support for whatever you do, all I can do is try. It may seems to be the easiest word but truly, it's not. I have to fight all odds to get here, no I dont want to give you up just because we live in different world with different lifestyle and behaviour. But I am really tired. I am not myself lately, I have no idea how long can I last, and bet you too. I have so many issues with you and all we can do is to sort it out slowly, hopefully, steady.

I question myself so much lately and worried is it then end. I wonder aloud, trying to sort it out and till now. I am lost at a crossroad. I guess I seriously will not get into another relationship any time sooner. It's not just sitting there and leaving the problem alone and pray it will move on by itself. I dont believe in that. I can see that you are trying hard, I can realli see so. But it breaks my heart staring at you trying to fight your inner self. I want an end to all this sometimes so much, I did tot of sayin out the forbidden words. I am losing my grip. Why do I feel lonely without you around?

Whatever you wan, I can give you that, I promise. But seriously, I think our path more towards friendship instead. Sometimes, you make me feel so loved. Yet, somedays, i jus can't seem to even get to see you. But there is a thing for sure, you are very sweet. Thank you for everythin. I will not give you up. I still want to try, till we both come to a pt when we just can't take it anymore, we wan a quit.