STATUS (THIN LINE BETWEEN FRIENDS AND LOVERS)

Was it something I said, or was it something you are hiding. Was it that I am not good enough or was it that there is more than meets the eye. If I have to carefully select the words to use in my every sentence, does that mean that you fell in love with me? Cause that is something you will not expect from a friend but lover. We can’t be just friends. Self-convincing shall not work this time I hope, it is time to face the truth, the reality and stop running away. Every time you face some obstruction along the path, you will choose to take the easy way out, avoid it rather than face the obstacles. I think I love you enough to give you everything. But sadly, my care and concern was not reciprocated. I know u hate yourself whenever you feel that you should have treasure me more. I am clearly acquainted with the fact that it will take time, you love me but you don’t say it out. You said we should just stay as friend but deep down you know we can’t. You questioned if I am jealous if you talk about your crush, but you also said you will too if I mention something nice about others but you. You will not be that bothered with what I said if you treat me as a friend, cause you never did.

I didn't go to East Coast in the end. Not that I am lazy nor is that I have a change of heart, just sometime, things dont alway go your way. I ended up in my aunt's shop and seriously, I regretted going over. I was foolish enough to go over to be made a fool out of myself. This is gonna be the one and only time it will happen. Nothin much happened today, just sad that I had a little disagreement with someone, must be something that I said. I think I should leave the person alone for awhile, just long enough to give us the space we need and time for me to learn how to be not be bothered with things. I find it rather hard to comunicate if the person continues to behave like that, really not very healthy start I presume. All in all, this got me thinking and questioning over things again.