REINCARNATION

There is a tribe in North America, Arctic who believes that all things on earth has a soul that exists in a miniature form of the body that holds it. So, a deer has a tiny deer inside it and a man has a little man inside him. When the large being dies, that tiny form lives on.

It can slide into something being born nearby or it can go to a temporary resting place, like the sky, in the belly of a great feminine spirit, where it waits until the moon can send it back to earth.

Sometimes, they say, the moon is so busy with the new souls of the world, they disappears from the sky. That is why we have moonless nights. But in the end, the moon always returns, as do we all. At least, that is what they believe.

Maybe that is their version of reincarnation. What do you want to be in your next life? If you have a choice, what will you be? If I have a choice what will I be?

Finally 23, but I still feel 18. Maybe I have not grown up much. But I truly know that it’s about time to move on to the next stage. It’s time to grow up, at least a little bit more and a long way to go.

PAY RAISE? NOT!

While the whole nation is debating over the recently announced news about the pay raise, I am keeping my finger crossed. Not very hopefully about it, honestly speaking. As much as I am hoping that HR dept will adjust my miserable salary, there is still no sight of a brighter sky. Here I am, stuck and bashed. But all in all, I think there is no point of making a too big of a hoo-haa over this as there is almost nothing we can do nor will there be a productive outcome over this. It's set as it ought to be. No need for more questions to be asked.

Life goes on as per normal each and every single day, but my vision and motivation became blur. I am reaching office later by the days from 8.20am to 8.30am then to 8.50am and now, hopefully before 9am. This is this much I can take. Just back from Taiwan and now I am looking forward to a good weekend gateway to somewhere nearby, preharps Malaysia or to Bangkok, Thailand.

Is it true that we human beings, are never contented with what we have? Always looking at else where, greed-minded humans with distorted mentality. We are forever seeking and yet, most of the time, nothing was found.

What people wanted most sometime is simplicity, but reality complicates life.

AND I WONDER

Reaching 19th Apr 2007, adding one more candle onto the birthday cake. That indirectly imply that I need to grow more mature, mentally and better control of myself. No more losing the grip. Just barely a couple more days to go... But why do I feel so uneasy about the fact I am growing older? Is it the fact that I will be one year closer to my grave or due to the fact that I have yet done something that I really do want to.

Back from Taiwan for close to a month but yet, still miss the place a lot. Maybe what I need most is a break, a long break from reality and all. Why am I feeling that I will break down at times like this? Hey Samuel, hold on. Things will eventually turn out fine. Just need to be more patient and have faith in yourself.... And I wonder, how long more do I have to hold on to this faith?